Friday, September 11, 2015

We Begin and End with Family

I just realized that my blog is sending off some somber vibes these days. I have to do something about that. Lately, when I feel the need the blog are those times I’m not at all feeling high.

Today is a Saturday and our first weekend alone as a family after more than three months. My dad just left two days ago and I’m feeling the blues again. I’m blogging from their old master bedroom that I claimed for myself as my big walk-in closet/ woman cave. I love coming here and just being alone but today it felt emptier than any other time in the last six years since they moved away.


I guess one good thing about being the only one so far away from my family, every time I’m with any of them is savored.
Each moment is carefully curated in my mind to look back on days I’m feeling alone and missing them.
Every activity, however mundane it may be is etched in memory even though at the back of my head I always wonder about when will the next time be.
I realized the most ordinary things we do, the most everyday routines are the ones we remember the most --- and miss the most.

Every little moment is a little bit more special.

Today, I’m missing some people in Chicago a wee bit more than the usual, this morning the ache is more gnawing.

Today, I will cuddle with my husband and son, hug them a little bit more and remind myself that I’m not alone and as long as I have family, both the one I came from and the one I’m creating--- I’ll never be alone.

Friday, August 7, 2015

What Happened?

I know I promised myself to write more again. I know I keep on breaking that promise. So many things have been happening and have happened, where do I even begin?

I guess the gist of it is I had been going through some sort of big metamorphosis in life. The past year had been challenging for me professionally and business-wise. 
After having Hunter and almost at the same time opening a physical store, so many demands in my life made some things take a backseat. Sadly these were the things that brought me so much joy and affirmation as an individual.
It came to a point that I felt I had been neglecting myself physically. I don’t primp up as much as I used to, wearing frumpy clothes and going out with a style that best describes as “I-don’t-give-a-f*ck.”
One clear thing about me for people, who have known me for years, is that I gained weight. At times that I may forget about this issue with all the busy demands in life and someone will most graciously point out the obvious to me. Thank you. =/
I really want to do something about it but I guess being a person who loves control and very exacting with my ways---eating, stress-eating to be more exact is the only time I can let go. 
Food has become some sort of addiction. It has become an emotional aspect for me: food is for celebration, for boredom, for bonding… for comfort.
I got to a point where I was at my heaviest I have ever been in life. I suddenly missed my old self, more than about the weight but my old self who takes care of me. My old self who went on health diets and morning walks when feeling so much had been going on. I haven’t seen her for a very long time.

I’ve always thought I can do this, I can take more, give me more to the point that it went up to my eyeballs and I was drowning.
The momentum at the start was great. Things had been great. But I guess throughout the years, my success made me take bigger risks, bigger bites that in the end I was going too fast, too furious. I was running so fast while thinking, where am I going? Is this really where I want to go? Is there a point to all these? Is it really worth it?

Paolo and I were talking the past few weeks. Discussing my next steps--- is it time to slow down? Is it time to take another turn? After taking into consideration all the pros and cons and getting into lengthy discussions, it dawned to me that I should only be asking myself one thing: Am I still happy doing what I do?

I removed all the loud noises both environmentally and internally. I used to listen to music or watch/listen to documentaries while working. I decided to try a week of just being very silent and not turning on anything while working and reflect on what I was doing. I highly recommend doing this. I realized I suddenly could hear my thoughts more clearly.  I like to think this is a way of praying and God talking to me.  Those small little moments gave way to little new dreams.
Now I am at a comfortable pace. I am not yet entirely at that speed where I want but I think I’m getting there.



What am I trying to convey with all these Kumbaya? That we have to trust the process; we have to believe that a certain level of discomfort is necessary in any metamorphosis, in any change. 

 When you remove your hands from all unnecessary burden, you become lighter and open to grasp more things that truly matter. Sometimes what makes us hold on to toxic things in our life is the level of familiarity they bring us and familiarity though how toxic it may be--- is comforting.

Endings are sad but I will always believe in what they entail: new beginnings.









Friday, July 10, 2015

So my mama left yesterday after a very brief vacay in Manila. I am still trying to get over my sadness of her leaving. I guess being so far away from them will always remind me from time to time how much I miss them and miss out on so many things. 
The last three weeks made me regress to my younger self, being cooked for and taken care of. 
I miss those times and its not even 48 hours since my mom left--- and I miss her even more.

I love you, Mama. I hope you had a great vacay. Counting the days until I can be with you again. 
See you soon, Lola


Sunday, July 5, 2015

Hi.

Hello much forsaken blog... I'm still here.

Whew, where do I even start? The last 4 months had been very hectic yet rewarding.

First off, we finally and completely potty-trained Hunter barely a month after he turned three. It was a very trying first two weeks. The triumphant smiles and screams and way-to-gos in the end made all the experience very special. Amidst "accidents" and exasperations, I wouldn't miss any of that in the world.



We joined two consignment stores, two online shops and opened a store in Lazada very recently. I will also be opening a small community store. I know that I had been talking about taking it slow though there are still some big decisions to be made I generally like the direction I'm going. We'll see where it goes.

Chloe and Isabel Howlites Necklace





My parents are back in the Philippines for some well-deserved vacay. It will only be for a short while.  Days before my mom leaves and I'm having minor panic attacks, bursting into tears just thinking she will be in a completely opposite timezone again.



Honestly, I've been making myself extra busy to take my mind off from that. 
I am honestly feeling the itch again to fly back to Chicago and be with family but with all the things going on and preparing Hunter for the big school (gasp), I just don't know how the next few months will be for me.

*Sigh. My first post after a long time and I sound a bit nega. It's the whirlwind of activities and emotions that are getting into me.
More things to blog about, I guess. Hashtag: Welcome back. =)

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Business front

I really promised that I will be slowing down a bit this year. It's because I really wanted to focus on growing mg family and just being there for my boys. As any entrepreneur knows, sometimes its not so much on the business growth but the evolving and changing structure---I guess that's what happened to me. I've been busy branching out to different avenues still related to my main baby which is accessories.

I remember my Multiply days. It was my very first "Online Store." This is where I started putting my business out which was nerve-racking. I only made jewelry for family and friends before this. I'm so glad I did take the plunge. I will forever look back in this time of my life with fondness and gratefulness.




Then I had to take things a bit more seriously. I had to register my business and put up my own brand. I didn't really want to add my name. I didn't want to come off as assuming and "feeling" designer. But all the names that I wanted were already registered. Upon the suggestion of the DTI official, I sticked to my first choice, "Charmed Life" and added Ysa Yason --- which is not really my first name but just a nickname and has a better recall.

I started on just making handmade accessories for individual buyers then started supplying materials to other entrepreneurs. From there, I went on supplying to resellers and other shops who rebrand the items and place their own name.



The heart of my business is online and through these bulk orders. As I always say, it grew organically in a sense that I didn't have any concrete business plan.

Most people think that my business is solely only making custom pieces for individual buyers which is actually a marketing tool more than anything else. "Do you this on your own?" is a question I get often.
Yes, as much as possible I make them myself but I do have people who help me out or else I would be a bead hermit with no life and sleep. The life of my business relies on bulk orders which are corporate giveaways, products campaigns and personal/company events which more often than not requires machine/ ready-made pieces.

I put up a physical store so that it would be my mini-showroom. It was for a little while and then we starting adding other products that complement our business.
This year, I'm so happy to have Simone's Closet in our shop.





We have also added locally-made bags and just a few cosmetic collection---which is mainly my personal love. I love buying makeup although I don't use them often. I just though adding a few pieces in our shop would make it feel more like a boutique where there is a little something for every girly girl. =)





It's just nice to look back once in a while. I feel like a change is coming, after all it is inevitable. 

I am also happy to share that we are starting 2 new Online Stores in the coming days. I don't know if we can still keep our name but I'm just happy that we are on board something bigger and exciting.  

I'm excited for the coming months. Other than these developments, I honestly don't know what the future has in store. I guess that is what makes the whole ride more exciting. =) 


Keep on living the Charmed Life























Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Our 6th Anniversary and Abe's Farm

Goodness me, six years! Where did all those years go?

Paolo and I were talking on our way to Pampanga and we both agree that the wedding was just like 2 years ago. I still can't believe we are now an old married couple. =p

We decided to celebrate our anniversary this year in the rustic Abe's Farm in Pampanga. we both love rustic, somewhere-in-time little getaways as much as the luxurious hotel staycations and decided a little getaway would be fun for Hunter as well; to get some fresh air and escape the City for a bit.

Somewhere in time, somewhere in Pampanga





One thing Pao and I agree on about parenting is exposing our son to as much culture and different ways of life. We want him to be as home in a Nipa hut as much as in a swanky hotel room.

Hunter loved our little kubo 








 Good thing we have a little trooper who loves the outdoors and roughing it up a bit. He's not named Hunter for nothing!
Hunter loved our little kubo and the lush greenery. We had the place almost all to ourselves since there was only one other group checked in at that time.





Our morning trails


We enjoyed the spa although as usual there's always the little third wheel in the couple's room. We always plan on a little getaway just the two of us but always feel guilty a few hours into our alone time that we just end up bringing the little man.
I know, I know. We have to start on having "just-mama-and-papa-time" but figured as long it's just us three, we might as well bring Hunter along. We are happier that way. =)

Finally, just us two?

...Not really

Couple-and-a-little-man's massage room

The food is one of the highlights of our mini getaway. Love everything! We especially love the Sugpo with Aligue, Beef ribs and Tamarind Shake. The Bamboo rice is also something new for us.


But the best hands down is the dessert--- "Sikreto Ni Maria" is now one of our fave desserts ever.

I was actually curious what it was given the cheeky name but the hostess told us that it was indeed a secret and we must find out for ourselves. 
Good thing we did! It was cold, warm, soft, tangy, sweet all at the same time.
Maybe it's the ambiance. ;) It made me nostalgic about my good old summer days in Mindoro where my Papa would order a Sorbetes for all the farm kids. I haven't tasted it for years and taking a bite brought back all those wonderful memories.

(p.s. We went to Abe Trinoma because we were having Sikreto ni Maria withdrawals---  I swear the ice cream tastes different in Abe Pampanga with their other Abe restaurants in Manila. Maybe it is the Ambiance. ;))

What is it really? You have to find out for yourself!


It was a great weekend for us. We were well-fed, well-rested and well-loved. The little man had a great time and although we love little rustic getaways every now and then, I'm a City girl at heart.




More adventures in the coming weeks!



Contemplating on his next adventure!